Thank you Dave,
I posted this here as I thought it had something to do with virtual instruments (I thought I was not accessing it correctly). So it was two subjects (do I have it and how am I not able to find it and if I don't have it, should I? And if not, why not? A perusal of the posts indicate there may be a possible download, or possibly not (more likely). There are loads of places I could have wrongly posted this, so I wrongly posted it here. For which I offer apologies.
I thought I did have the full version - arm and leg price at the time.
So in other words I don't have it; it's not hidden and I do have to buy it. Ok. Now I know.
Cheers....